who knew you could make a sound that would make all of my problems go away.

there are those songs. you hear them and you wonder how you ever felt angry or sad or lonely. or you wonder why those were ever bad emotions to feel.

you hear these songs and you suddenly feel content. at peace. for a moment, the crazy world around you slows to a halt. you are neither in control nor powerless. you simply exist.

you are not hot. you are not cold. not that you would be able to feel those things any way.

you arent necessarily happy. but you know everything is going to be okay. and you're petty worries drift out the open window as you entertwine your fingers in the warm air flowing by.

you wonder how you've ever felt any other way.

hey now, we're just bleeding for nothing.
it's hard to breathe when you're standing here on your own.

i just told you i was leaving. and i did for a minute. but i really just didnt want to talk to you anymore. and then you left. and i came back. i was so mad at you. at least i thought i was. but you want to know my real emotions? yes, i have them. i was hurt. you dont think your going to find anyone. but i will do in the meantime? dont use me. i am just your friend. at least i was. i dont know what i am now.

you have no right to get mad when i tell you about my guy situation when i have to listen to you whine about her and indirectly shoot arrows at my heart.

so for now i will just go back to my music. the song that tells me everything is and will always be okay.