.waiting for blood to flow to my fingers.

things are what you make them. it is a simple as that. mind over body. if i could believe only one thing. it would be that we can control everything with our minds. everything. we control our happiness. depression. excitement. enjoyment. empowerment.

sure, there are flaws in this theory. i'm not quite sure we can levitate things with our mind. and we sure as hell cant control other... which is sad and unfortunant. we cant control what happens to us. but we have control over what we make of it.

i'm kinda weirded out by people who want to transfer already. like they think the whole process of unparalleled change will be any different somewhere else. i mean sure you can go back to the local college where all of your friends go....but then is it even really change?

dont you think that, at some point, college will become comfortable just like high school was? and was there really never a point in high school where you didnt want to be there either? its all about perspective. maybe your preconceived notions about college were too high...or maybe just different. you expected to come to college and meet some amazing girl or guy (or in between) and you would fall madly in love with each other. right? high school was for messing around...college for settling down. okay maybe not for some guys. and maybe not for me.

but you havent found that person two months into college and all hope is lost. and you dont have that great group of friends yet. and there for never will. or classes suck. but dont classes suck everywhere? i mean unless you're in art school, classes just suck ass.

so why can't you stick it out? so you hate it? join something. put yourself out there. go out and do something.

except come into my room. do not come and sit your ass down in my room. unless i've invited you. because i am sick and tired of people thinking i have all the time in the world to pay attention to them. or all the concentration in the world to ignore them and their loud noises. because i dont. so please dont sit on my stuff or eat my food or use my shit.