if you hadnt broken me, i wouldnt have this childlike desire

and since i left the last one unfinished...

we haven't met yet. but you'll like me. it wont be instant infatuation. but you'll think to yourself, "this girl is pretty cool." and then we'll become friends because we'll randomly run into each other around campus.

and we'll get to know each other. and you'll see that i dont get upset. or annoying. or emotional. very easily. and you'll like that. you'll see that i am independent. and you'll like the fact that i dont need you. and i wont feel awkward texting you to do things all the time. because i know you know that i am not obsessive. but merely like friends. and we'll have so much fun together that we'll spend all of our time together. and you'll crash on my floor. but it means nothing. except that we're comfortable.

and this random dude came and sat down next to me. (like for reals dog). and i and finding it to be very awkward that i am writing this. next to him. because if he read this. he'd think i was crazy. or maybe he already thinks i am crazy for blogging. which i tried to hide. i dont know why i dont like for people to see me when i am blogging. thats odd. i'm odd.

anyway. then i'll tell you. and once i tell you, there's no turning back. and you'll hold me as i cry. and it wont be the same anymore. and it is then that you'll tell me that you love me. and it will be perfect.

and now that i am thouroughly phsyco. i am going to end this.