so who's going to watch you die?

it's an interesting way to prioritize. is that bad to base my life around death? think about it. If, before you made every decision in your life, you asked yourself: will i regret not doing this when i am about to die? or will this be important by the time i die?

and that "life-flashing-before-your-eyes" thing? apparently its real. but in shaded of blue. and when my life flashes quickly before my eyes, what is it that i will remember? it wont be the D on my physics test. it wont be that trivial argument we got in last week. hell, it wont even be that huge fight we got in in middle school. It wont be the fact that i've never been pulled over. or the countless times i blew my curfew.

no. i will remember our times down on the river. and that time we DIDNT skinny dip. and the time when other you and i did. and i proceed to flash my girl parts to everyone.

and i'll remember my puppy. and i'll remember volleyball and track and how they corrupted me. and how i corrupted you. and i'll remember the time we sat on the beach despite the sound of the tsunami warning. not because everyone else was staying. but because we were together. and together, we're invincible.

and i will remember CMU. i'll remember grey's night. and the night we shared secrets. and i'll remember bus rides. who could forget? and i'll remember back in the good old days how i got the best roommate ever.

and i wont just remember the good times. i'll remember the trials. our trial. but i'll realize how strong it has made me. and i'll take comfort in knowing i'll be with you soon.

and when i am with you, everything will be fine. because together we will be invincible. and i will never sacrifice you, compromise you, or take you forgranted.

so who's going to watch you die? who's going to watch me die?

you, dedicated bffn, i know you'll be there. you are the kindest most sypathetic individual i know. and i know you would drop everything to be with me. so despite the stress you place upon yourself, i truly believe you have your priorities in check. thats because i am first on you list of priorities, right?

and you, other bff. you'll be there too. no doubt about it. and you will take my mind off of it. because you are the most energetic person i know. and together we may beat the odds: we might cry. despite the lack of teasrs escaping our eyes the last time i left. you'd send me flowers and probably know exactly what to bring me: york peppermint patties and a cosmo.

you, unreachable, taken you: you'll come. because despite your efforts to be bad ass. you're a great guy. and you would make me laugh.

and you, my old you. you will come. but the pressure will be too much. you'll cry like usually. and i'll try to cry like i used to.

and you, undesired but irresistable you, you might come. maybe once. but i sort of think it might scare you. not in a pussy way. but i think it would be too much.

and you, fu you: i am pretty sure you would come. multiple times. and A you would probabkly tag along when you could.

and official best roommate ever: you would be there. and you'd make me laugh too. we'd laugh about annoying kid and perfect girl and hermione and briere's drawrs, idears, alwahs, and now dorings. we'd laugh, i'm sure of it.

and i am sure that you too would come visit me. or so you tell yourself.