and i've lost sense of confidence, knowing that mike orsolini is #5 most desirable in his network...my network.

it's different when you're in college, you know?

these random acts of violence.

because I just can't imagine it happening to me...yet i find myself in the perfect location. and i wonder what i would do with my family across the country. and i wonder what would set someone off like that.

why would you kill someone you didnt know? are you that tortured by life? i wont pretend to think that "if only someone would have reached out to him, things would have been different." because i'm not sure it would have.

i understand wanting to die. i really do. but taking someone who wants to live with you? i dont understand that.

i understand just wanting to escape the pain. i really do. but it goes away. i promise.

and when it goes away, it will help. it will help you be happier than you ever imagined. it will help you appreciate everything you never noticed. and most of all it will make you a better person. because i am better than i ever was before.